Marc D. Goldfinger

The Case Against George W. Bush


I. Lewis Scooter Libby has been convicted of outing CIA agent Valerie Plame Wilson. That leads to Karl Rove, which leads to Dick Cheney, which leads to George W. Bush, which leads back to Dick Cheney which leads to the Iraq War.

In the meantime Bush is trying to cut $26 Billion from Medicaid, $159 million to Substance Abuse Treatment, $143 million to rural health care programs and that’s just the beginning.

And you’ve all heard about the abuse our wounded veterans have been going through at the Walter Reed Hospital due to unsanitary conditions.

He keeps asking for money for the war but wants to break the back of the American people.

He’s not a uniter; George W. Bush is a crook and a killer and a liar.

I’d tell you more but I have to go right now but you’ll be sure I’ll be back.

George Bush is like a Hagfish inside of a whale to our country. The Hagfish eats all the internal organs until the whale dies.

Peace, peace, peace now.

Just a Brief Note


In Iqalit, Nunavit Territory, Simon Nattaq fell through the thinning Arctic ice due to rising Arctic temperatures.

Global warming? He thinks so. He lost both feet but managed to survive. He says, “Today I am here because the creator allowed it.”

According to an article in The Boston Globe, “the Arctic is the region of the globe hardest hit by rising temperatures.”

There is a report released February 2nd by a UN sponsored group of scientists that indicate “the Arctic’s late-summer sea ice will disappear almost entirely in the second half of this century.”

The Earth is changing. Are we the geological force moving the planet into global warming, which does not mean that all places will get warmer; it could trigger colder temperatures in areas that were warm. There is a giant current (one of many) called the Conveyer belt in the ocean which, if too much ice melts and drops fresh water into the ocean, could stop and reverse direction and, almost overnight, climates could change dramatically all over the Earth.

I studied this stuff in the late 60′s, early 70′s using a text by Odum and a great ecology teacher whose name has slipped out of my mind used to take us out to the Hudson River in slightly upper New York State, near Red Hook. He’d help us collect samples of small wildlife and study the ecosphere to show us how small changes can have major effects. This was while I was a student at Bard College. What freaks me out is that all the things he talked about as coming probabilities are starting to take place now.

I don’t know why people get all upset over second hand cigarette smoke when we walk around with giant exhaust pipes spewing trash out into the atmosphere. Which would you rather suck on — a cigarette or an exhaust pipe?

Just imagine, for a second, glueing all the exhaust pipes of every car and truck in the world together into one giant pipe. Think about it. How big would that pipe be?

Right now, that pipe is pushing carbon dioxide, carbon monoxide, particulate matter, and other compounds into our fragile but powerful atmosphere.

When cars were first invented, no one thought about the magnitude of millions of vehicles running all over the world. It was a new concept then. We just take it for granted now.

I’m only 61 years old and I’ve seen major changes in our entire environment.

Have you ever read about Passenger Pigeons? They flew and nested in giant flocks in North America. Some flocks were over a mile wide and 150 miles long. That’s like the distance between Boston and the White Mountains in New Hampshire. It takes over three hours to make that trip by (ahem) automobile. Anyway, those birds would all land at once in some area and the trees would bend with the weight of them.

Humans would set up Gatling guns and bring other types of weapons out and slaughter the birds. I mean, the ground would be piled high with dead birds.

They’re extinct now. Not a one of them survives.

Just think of how many there were and twist your mind around the fact that they’re all gone.

We can change the world.

The Weston Priory


The Weston Priory is a monastery in Weston, Vermont and the Brothers there are wonderful. My wife and I just spent a few days, not staying at the priory itself, but at an inn, the Weston Inn (a beautiful friendly place) and went to the priory for Eucharist and prayer.

Nowadays, it seems as if the “in” phrase is “What would Jesus do?”

According to the Brothers, they ask, “What did Jesus do?”

You can find the answer if you look hard enough. I’m not really one of those extremely religious freaks but I think the above is truly the question.

Not really far from the above subject, of all the 21 richest nations in the world, the United States and Great Britain ranked last on child welfare. The Netherlands, followed by Sweden, Denmark, and Finland were at the top of the ratings.

Now, far from what we were just talking about, a squid which was 39 feet long was just pulled out of the Antarctic waters. It died, natch. If you made calimari rings out of the squid, they would be the size of tractor tires.

Dinner anyone?

This type of squid is called the Colassal Squid (Mesonychoteuthis hamiltoni) and descend to 6,500 feet in the ocean. I wonder how many are left.

800 gorillas, 6,000,000,000 humans.

Countdown to destruction.

Again, the U.S. screws our battered Service People From the War Zone


At the Walter Reed Army Medical Center the soldiers who have served honourably in an intolerable war that should never have taken place are housed in dingy rat and roach infested quarters while they wait months and months, stretching into over a year for some, to find out their fate.

Will they be sent back? Are they fit to be sent back? Why should they be punished for our country’s inability to provide troops for what has now turned into a civil war.

The U.S. has de-stabilized the Mid-East, sent our good men and women to die, suffer, be wounded phsically and mentally and then, denied livable quarters and, even though disabled, denied disability payments.

A brain-injured corporal was told that his damage pre-existed his head wound and was denied disability. His wife had to call a House of Representative staff member to get him a 50% disability. Why should this happen?

I quote “this is the first time this country has fought a war for so long with an all-volunteer force since the Revolution.”–Major General George W. Weightman.

Meanwhile, Great Britain is pulling out. They are pulling their 7,100 soldiers while crazy George W. is sending a “surge” of over 20,000 of ours into the meat grinder that his regime has created.

Senator Kennedy of Massachusetts says, “No matter how the White House tries to spin it, the British government has decided to split with President Bush and begin to move their troops out of Iraq. This should be a wake-up call to the administration.”

Unfortunately, our president and his men are not asleep; they’re dumb and dumberer. The damage to our country will take generations to clear up.

God help us. Please George, Dick, and Condoleeza — quit before it’s too late. Or is it already too late?

Our Fighting Men & Women


You know it’s a damn shame that Punk George doesn’t want to give the same kind of support to our vets once they’ve been damaged by this war that never should have happened.

Recently Marine Private Jonathon Schulze, 25, of Stewart, Minn., the recipient of two Purple Hearts for his service, attempted to check into a psychiatric unit in St. Cloud, Minnesota. He was suffering from extreme PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) brought about by the horrors he experienced while serving near Fallujah in 2004. He tried to check in on January 11th with bags packed and they turned him away, placing him 26th on a waiting list. He told intake counselors that he felt like killing himself more than once. Desparate, he called again on Jan. 12th and they still did nothing.

He hung himself four days later.

They don’t put you through bureaucratic bullshit when they send you to the war zone.

Why doesn’t George W. go over there, don a uniform, and fight.

Before this war began I wrote an editorial for the Spare Change News in Cambridge Mass saying that if George wants a fight so badly, he should get in a ring with Saddam Hussein. I also said that it would be cheaper and less lives lost, maybe none, if we went into Iraq and rebuilt all the damage we did during the first Gulf War, new hospitals, new schools, a new water infrastructure, etc.

But no, George and his puppet-master Dick Cheney and Donald Duck Rumsfeld wanted a war and they didn’t care who died as long as it wasn’t them.

We’re going to be paying the price for this war for a long time to come.

My condolences to all the parents of the brave men and women who had to go over there.

Believe me, Private Schulze wasn’t the only suicide because of VA neglect. Marine Corporal Jeffrey Lucey of Belchertown, Mass was another victim of this fiasco brought about by our incompent leaders.

George W., Dick Cheney, Donald Duck Rumsfeld and others should be arrested and tried for war crimes in a just world.

There are more terrorists now than ever because of this war. If you feel safer now, you’re asleep.

On another subject, the Doomsday Clock, created in 1947 to warn the world of the dangers of nuclear (can you pronounce that word yet George) weapons, advanced the clock to five minutes before midnight. The last time they moved the clock was 2002.

“We stand at the brink of a second nuclear age,” was the statement by the clock’s board of directors. North Korea, Iran, even the United States new love affair with “bunker buster” nuclear bombs and the existing 26,000 American and Russian weapons keep the clock ticking.

How many nuclear weapons does it take to destroy a world? We’ve got ‘em, they’ve got ‘em and one day, some asshole’s gonna start using them again.

The threat of Global Warming, which is not an illusion folks, also helped to move the Doomsday Clock to five minutes before midnight. By midnight, I don’t mean it’s time for a snooze either, my friends.

The closest to midnight the clock has ever come was two minutes to in 1953, right after the United States and the Soviet Union started testing hydrogen bombs. The farthest it was was in 1991, when the “Cold War” appeared to come to a close.

And, on a much lighter note, while Bo Diddley was recently performing his work at the Reggatabar Jazz fest a week ago from Feb 15th, here in the Boston area, this photographer got right up in his face and started flashing away. Bo Diddley said, and I paraphrase, Hey, Don’t come in my kitchen and eat my chicken without asking me if you can have a piece. Where’s my money for all these pictures you’re taking without my permission? he asked.

Then some dope in the audience threw three dollars at Bo and his band. Bo picked up the money and counted one, two, three and then turned and counted his band members, one, two, three, four, five — and threw the guy some bad eyes.

Bo Diddley is a Rock and Roll Hall of Famer and is copied by many musicians. But, artists are usually phenomenally underpaid. Oh, there’s a few really really rich ones, but most artists die poor, depressed and unknown.

When a good artist makes it, at least respect him. I wonder what those clowns that dissed him in the audience add to the world?

I received the Bo Diddley info from the Boston Phoenix courtesy Katie Johnston Chase. Thanks.

Mission Accomplished, heh heh.

Just Thoughts on today

I just started reading Thomas de Quincy’s Confessions of an Opium Eater; I was lucky enough to get an original version published in 1950.

I’ve read excerpts of his Confessions but I never had the entire version. As a former heroin addict for over three decades, I’m quite interested in his version.

I’ve written a 36 chapter book called Tales of the Troll. It concerns addiction and ecology and some of the old Gods are in it and some new.

The heroes are heroin addicts and angels. My other book, not counting numerous poetry books is a book of essays on addiction complicated with other major mental illness. It’s a miracle I made it out alive.

If I drank the way I used heroin I wouldn’t be alive today.

Yes, I do get published. You can do a search engine on Yahoo or Google for Marc D. Goldfinger and see a smattering of my work.

Sara Gran, the author of Dope, a noir thriller put out by Penguin, says “Marc D. Goldfinger beats the hell out of most writers working today.” I was happy to be validated. I’m 61 years old. The closer you get to the edge, wherever the personal edge is, the less time one has to say what they have to say.

So say it now.

What I Wanted To Say Was

6 billion people counting down
while dead zones grow in the oceans
while people wrap Christmas presents
while people plant car bombs
while children learn to be good citizens
while some parents choose which child dies
while Bob Dylan writes ads for Victoria’s Secrets
while Madonna adopts a child from Africa
while HIV spreads like an ink stain on a paper towel
while children play video games shooting gray heads
while bees, hummingbirds, and bat populations decline
while bees, hummingbirds, and bats pollinate plants
while the oceans are fished out by factory ships
while Halloween disappears
while some countries train children to kill
while some countries train children to kill
while some countries train children to kill
while my hair turns gray as I heal
while my refrigerator is humming
while somone is hunting for a scrap of food
while I lay warm in my bed
while my friends die in the shelters
while the president of the United States makes decisions
while the vice-president accidentally shoots his friend
while Donald Rumsfeld sends our soldiers to die in Iraq
while I remember he sent soldiers to die in Viet Nam
while I sit at my computer to write poetry
while my wife is hard at work
while 56% of state prisoners show symptoms of mental illness
while we spend so much more money to kill
while we spend so little to heal
while I wonder why China’s Yellow River turned red
while I notice that so many factories are on river banks
while I go to the bank to get money to buy comic books
while 24% of jail inmates are psychotic
while my motorcycle sits in a shed surrounded by dead leaves
I think about all the plans I had when I was young
they were good plans and I had high hopes
well I am registered to vote and I do that
I read quite a bit and write a little more
I love my wife and say my prayers
sometimes I just sit and think
sometimes I try to sit and not think
why do we always have enough money to kill people
why is there never enough money to feed everyone
as I read this poem there are machines running all over the world
once upon a time there was a man who became a poet
words are powerful things
a bullet or a bomb can only explode one time
it’s true that many will die
but words can be used over and over
maybe one day we will stop killing each other
because of something someone said
I would like to be the person who says the magic words
but if it’s you who have the magic words
that will stop all the killing and the cruelty
I hope you say them soon
words are powerful things
say them already say them say them say them
I’ve got my ear to the ground
and the way the ground is humming
it feels like we’re running out of time.

by Brian Morrisey

Brian Morrisey: Did you feel more creative when you were doing heroin?

Marc D. Goldfinger: I felt very creative when I was using heroin. That doesn’t mean I was. It drops your inhibitions. Ironically though, I have written my best work since I have been straight. In my TALES of the TROLL stories, the heroes were heroin addicts. When you are on dope you are constantly on the run, trying to score. It doesn’t make for a stable writing environment.

Brian Morrisey: When did you begin to write, and how did it play a role in your turbulent life?

Marc D. Goldfinger: I enjoyed reading. I read all the time. Some of my readings from my adolescence were: Moby Dick by Herman Melville, Junkie by William Burroughs, Confessions of An Opium Eater by DeQuincy, No Blade of Grass by John Christopher… to name a few. I had an appetite for reading like I had for heroin. Once in class, a teacher called me up and said, “Who wrote this?” “I wrote it.” She said, “Come on. Who wrote it for you?” I said, “I tell you what. Give me a topic, and I will sit right in front of you and write, while you watch. So she said, “You did write this.” After that, she worked with me after school for quite some time. As I said, I was a dark little kid. I wrote my first poem when I was thirteen or fourteen. Later in life, I read in biker bars. From 1982 to 1983, I was in prison for drug possession and sale of drugs. I organized a maximum-security tier poetry reading at Worcester County Prison, where I was incarcerated. The prisoners loved this reading. However, the guards were very edgy. I was reading some very provocative drug and crime poems, shouting out lines like “Just passing through this fucking state, my mind a cesspool of bubblin‚ hate…” The guys were cheering, arms raised, if the poetry reading went on that way for much longer, we might have had a riot. So I switched to love poems and they quieted down. Needless to say, that was the last poetry reading I conducted there.

Brian Morrisey: Any favorite authors in the prison genre?

Marc D. Goldfinger: I like everything by Jean Genet and Jack Henry Abbot was interesting.

Brian Morrisey: What was it like being the editor of Spare Change?

Marc D. Goldfinger: I was the only one available to do the job for the salary they were willing to pay, which wasn’t much. For the first year and a half (1994 to 1996), all I got for was two hundred papers a week to sell. Since I didn’t have time to sell them, other vendors would buy them from me. I was making fifty dollars a week. The paper didn’t have any money. When I was clean, I wanted to give back to it. I didn’t want to see it fold. We didn’t have a board of directors because everyone had drifted away. We had major upheavals in which the managing staff ripped off Spare Change to the tune of $30,000. As editor, I organized the format of the paper. I knew what I wanted the paper to look like. I covered the Marijuana Rally in the Boston Common, and the Bikes Not Bombs organization. I wrote a story on the underhanded dealings of Bush family, that I think was the first nasty and comprehensive story to come out of this ilk. Basically, the story dealt with Jeb Bush’s business loss to the tune of 4.5 million in 1985 in Florida. He took advantage of laws that were favorable to corporations and only had to pay about a half a million. The government covered the rest of the loss and the taxpayers suffered. It also dealt with George Bush’s use of insider information to dump a large amount of stock. As a result, many share holders of the stock suffered severely. George W. Bush once stated a few years back, “If this was a dictatorship it would be a heck of a lot easier—so long as I am the dictator.” I think this is a very telling statement, don’t you?

Brian Morrisey: Can you talk about your life as an activist and your political views?

Marc D. Goldfinger: I was extremely active against the Vietnam War. I was on Upsulla College radio; as a guest poet. I broadcasted even though even though I was high on drugs. We use to broadcast information about what to do in case of a tear gas attack by police and things like that. We were shut down by the F.C.C. because of Anti-American activity. I demonstrated over the years, and I was active with the anti-nuke group, the Clamshell Alliance in New Hampshire. I’ve been anti-violence for most of my life. Violence makes me ill. I think war is out of date for where the human species is today. I believe that at this point, we have to go beyond perceived differences. We have to step back and take a look. I think if we continue on the path we are on now, we will blow ourselves up, sicken ourselves, and regress to a primitive state. There will be a massive die-off and we will create conditions in our environment in which we can’t survive. My goal is to go to bed everyday without any regrets. My passions now are to write and to help other people with the illness of addiction.

Brian Morrisey: What’s replacing the “high” you needed?

Marc D. Goldfinger: I don’t know if anything can replace it, really. I do a lot of work with the development of my spirit. I pray, meditate, and try to help people through service work. All of this gives me a good feeling. I’d be happy if one of my poems stood the test of time. I won’t be around, but my ghost would be chuckling away.

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The Birth of Ar Lain Ta (Part One)

Everyone gets to pay the gatekeeper. In the end we pay with the only currency that we own. The gatekeeper’s desires are simple. All he wants is all we’ve got.

They call me the Troll. I’m a gatekeeper of sorts and I have my own kingdom. Of course, I have to follow the rules, too. He’s always watching me. He watches me through the eyes of the junkies that live here. Who’s he? I’ll get to that.

That’s why I treat everyone the same here in the last dope house on the block. No one gets here without paying the high price. Every one of us has opted out of the world as most of us know it.

Have you ever woken up in the morning at first light, heard the birds chirping, and then cursed the sun for burning you out of slumber? Have you ever stumbled to the bathroom looking for the wake-up shot that you hoped was still there, knowing full well that at three in the morning you had used it because the dreams in your head had grown sharp yellow teeth that were ripping away the pieces of what was left of your soul? Have you ever come to in the dark alley between mortar and bricks, behind the dumpster, where you had hidden to protect yourself from the young boys out wilding?

No, maybe you wake up scratching the dead skin on your face cursing the job that you must go to every day where your essence spills out into the ether as you wait on customer after customer. “And what would you like in your coffee, sir? Who’s next? Just jerk the handle, I’m dying, sir. I could use a drink myself.”

Or maybe you sit in a cubicle, one of many in a giant row of them, staring into a computer screen tabulating figure after figure, maybe checking zip codes hour after hour, pressure building up in your bladder, but “oh my god, I can’t go yet, there’s still so much to do and they never stop coming in. I hope I pass that urinalysis, I didn’t know that they’d pick me today. I don’t want to lose this job and wind up homeless.”

Quite possibly you’re a beautiful woman waking up late in the afternoon. Your body aches from running from the tables to the bar in that costume that always makes you feel like a piece of ground round served up steaming in a hog trough. The bruises where you were pinched dot your upper legs, you still smell the drink that someone threw at you because you wouldn’t give them a kiss. “Better the drink than their breath,” you think as you make your way to the bathroom to clean yourself before you are fouled by life once more. You look in the mirror and see the worry lines starting at the corners of the mouth, sparrow-prints at the eyes that are suddenly very wet and you swallow hard and splash water into your face, sobbing deep in your chest.

Just maybe you are the President of the United States waking to the news that another woman claims to know about the tattoo on your penis and you wonder how George Washington, John F. Kennedy, or even J. Edgar Hoover would have fared in this terrible time when everything is grist for the cows at the public watering trough called television. You roll over to hug your wife. She is crying. An emptiness that is full hurts between your lungs. “Maybe a war is not a bad idea,” is the thought that crosses your mind.

Hey, maybe you’re a writer like the guy in the corner there who is between stories or poems. You haven’t written a word in over two weeks and the worry stomps your mind into its down hellish nether regions. We all have them in our heads. Your mind says, “Maybe that’s it. Maybe I’ll never write again. Maybe I’ll just shoot some dope; I know a place where I can go, downtown where all the lights are bright, downtown where I can die tonight, downtown, everything’s waiting for me.”

I could go on and on and on. That’s how life is. Sooner or later we all wind up knocking on the door of the gatekeeper.

I’m a gatekeeper. My kingdom is a subterranean basement where junkies come to dream about what might have been. What should have been. What could happen if only, if only, if only. Sometimes I tell the stories and he writes them down. I’m not the only one here who tells the stories. Everyone who comes here has a story, maybe more than one. The guy in the corner — the Troll points to a bearded junkie sitting at a typewriter, he writes them down. He never tells the stories but he’s always listening and writing or typing. All it takes to shake him out of a deep nod is for someone to say, “Oh yeah, let me tell you a story about what happened to me.”

There are times, in the middle of a story, that he will stop to fix; maybe his hand has started to shake, maybe he just wants to hold off the cold and the cramps until the tale is over. His memory takes over and he’ll play catch-up while he’s listening. He may get to hear the same story a few times but each time it is a little different, depending on who’s doing the telling. It could be different even with the same teller.

He writes the stories but he always laughs and says, “I don’t really guarantee their accuracy, you know. But I don’t have to, see. No one believes a junkie.”

Call him Seth. Last name Morgan. The writer. I’m the teller but he’ll record it. He promised not to lie or change the facts and to write it just like I tell it. Junkies always make promises.

Let me tell you about another gatekeeper. The one who watches me. The one who might very well have his eyes on you. Some people call him the Dustman. Others say he is the king of the dreams that live between waking and sleep. Still others say that he is just a man who has chosen a path of crime and that he is nothing more than a druglord. I choose not to argue with anyone’s story when it is about him. The confusion clarifies my beliefs. My beliefs? I’ll tell you this story and let you form your own.

I’ll tell you this story about his beginnings. It was told to me by a Harvard professor who comes here now and then for a bit of a rest. Forget about it. I’m not going to reveal my source. You would probably recognize the name.

In the beginning the Dustman’s only name was Ar Lain Ta.