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Coming This Way

. . .O lost, and by the wind grieved, ghost, come back again.— Thomas Wolfe, Look Homeward Angel.

Sarah Palin spoke last night. “She creates instant excitement because nobody knows her.”—Joshua Hader, South Dakota. “Hilary is been-there, done-that. Palin is a bright, honest woman who will be going places.”—Vergene Donovan, Iowa.

To be honest, I don’t know who Sarah Palin is. Maybe she’d make a great president. Maybe she shouldn’t even come close to that job. But by being a heart-beat away from the presidency, if John McCain is elected or “selected”, I’d like to really know if she’s up to the job. Because, truth to tell, John McCain is that age where anything can happen.

Hell, I’m 62, and I’m at that age where anything can happen, instantly. Of course, you could say that about anyone, at any age, it’s just that the odds get shorter as the years get longer. Strangely enough, as the years add on, they feel as if they’re getting shorter all the time.

I believe our time sense changes dramatically as we age. Remember, when you were in grade school and were let out for summer vacation? The summer stretched ahead of you like eternity, the going back to school was just soooo far away. And then, one day, you were getting your books ready.

Now, at 62, when summer begins, I celebrate July 4th, wake up the next morning and it is Labor Day. Did you ever wonder why elderly people drive so slowly? Could it be that every other car and truck is whizzing by so fast that it is just overwhelming.

We get older, our time sense just changes. The way we perceive it is altered; each year time (a constant) shifts gear and picks up speed. As a child, one wakes up in the morning and the day stretches out like a lazy dog. So much can happen; the possibilities are endless; night is on its way but why think about it? The minute hand of the clock creeps slowly; the day is long and filled with promise(or horror depending on what kind of childhood you have) and there is so much to be done.

At 62, I wake up, get ready for daytime activities as the minute hand speeds so quickly I can’t see it; the hours fly by like minutes. I make a list of things to do and by the time I finish the list, the day can be half over. The seasons are like days, the years whip by as I hurtle towards my death. I’m happily married but I try to work the same shifts as my wife; I’m too old for a drive-by marriage.

I watched my father and mother. They suffered from a delusion, they thought they had forever together and then WHAM — and my mom was gone, my father crying as he lay on her empty body. Short, so short life is, but by the time we know it we are staring at wrinkles and grey hair in the mirror, wondering how that happened.

Teen-agers take note. Today you are dancing with amphetamine energy, tomorrow you are leaning on a cane — if you are lucky.

Death comes so quickly, like a lover that just can’t wait to get its arms around you.

And what does this have to do with John McCain’s choice, Sarah Palin? The fact is that Sarah Palin may be closer to the presidency than we ever dreamed of. John McCain is older than I and the clock is ticking.

I don’t care what Sarah said about Barack Obama. That’s her job. She’s being paid(in a sense) to paint a picture of Obama that is not flattering.

But Sarah Palin is no Lyndon Johnson. I guess we have that to thank for — or do we? I’m in the middle of watching “Chicago 10″, a new DVD that just came out. It is about the 1968 Democratic Convention and it should be required viewing for all students in Junior High School. It shows a part of history that must be remembered.

Today, or was it yesterday, free-lance journalist Emma Goldman was arrested just for speaking out near the republican convention. “Cuffed and Stuffed” as they say in criminal jargon. Who would have thought that so much damage could be done in just 8 years?

If the Yippee’s(hippies) could see us now, they would wonder why good Americans aren’t filling the streets in protest. George Orwell is crying in his grave. 1984 is a dream come true. “Who’s Watching The Watchmen?”

Tonight, as 911 draws near, John McCain will speak. Drawing demon’s breath, he will breathe fog into the eyes of the American people who don’t want the future to realize itself.

This is not a race to see which party will win the presidency. It is a fight for the survival of the human species(and all the other species except the cockroachs who are rooting for John McCain).

Make some phone calls. Put an Obama sign on your lawn before you lose your property. Take action, wherever you are.

Barack Obama is the man who can change the future of the U.S.A. He is the leader who can take us into the 21st century. If John McCain wins, to paraphrase Albert Einstein, “World War III will become real, and World War IV will be fought with sticks and stones.”

911 is just around the corner. Pay attention or pay the price.

The EGO of Rev. Jeremiah Wright

Much to Barack Obama’s regret, the pastor that he grew up with and worshipped with when he was young, his former pastor, has an ego the size of a brontosaurus. This Rev. Jeremiah Wright does not want to help Obama become President.

Rev. Wright’s goal is merely to gain as much publicity and cash as he can. Humility is out the window. He hopped on this bandwagon of destruction, gained a bit of attention, saw an opportunity, and grabbed hold of it like a Piranha that hasn’t eaten in days.

Rev. Wright, much to the detriment of the country and Obama, has seized the time, his time, and it is the only time he cares about. Instead of possessing the humility of a true Christian, he has the EGO of a man who thinks he is God.

Give a child who has struggled to get his mother’s attention for his entire life and gotten nowhere, a little press and he reaches, grasping maniacally, for more, more, more.

Wright plays the race card like a top shelf poker player but he doesn’t care who he hurts as long as he, as they say on the streets, “gets paid.”

Barack Obama is, at the expense of his campaign, being polite to this cantankerous old man who pretends to be a “minister of God.” Don’t believe for a minute that Rev. Wright is, as he says, defending the Black church, or Church of Colour, unless you see through to the truth.

Rev. Wright is defending the COLOUR GREEN, the colour of money, and he sees his opportunity to be in the limelight and “get paid” plenty. He’s in it for the money, folks, and he doesn’t care if, in the process of getting rich, he helps to destroy his country.

Rev. Jeremiah Wright is nothing but an egotist with a big mouth who has found a platform where he appears important. What Rev. Wright, this ”pretender to the pulpit” really needs is for someone to stuff a size 10 shoe right down his prattling throat.

When The Enemy Is Me

I look out at the world through the window of my disease. The world peers back at me, a taunting, twisting version of itself that tells me it is real.

Trust is not an issue. My mind is a flawed projector; I know it lies to me. Sometimes. One of the lies is that heroin will help me write. The horror of it is, at times it does. It clears my fears away, pinpoints my focus and, laser-like, my ideas take shape on paper. Yet the laser burns on both ends and soon I am unable to live without the substance.

At times my thoughts assault me with such intensity that suicide becomes a viable option. I smile at you as you pass me; I greet you warmly. I am glad to see you so I am not lying, however, inside myself, I am thinking of how best to do away with myself.

I get tired. I feel as if I am on a futile treadmill. It will not stop. I take one weary step after another. It is an effort to simply tie my shoelaces. My fingers tap the keys on the computer and I try to turn out another story, another poem; I try to create one more reason to keep on living.

My death rushes at me. It comes in so many forms: heart attack, cancer, cerebral hemorrhage, staph infection. Maybe a car in the oncoming lane will veer, its occupant stricken with a lapse of attention, possibly deep in a conversation on his cell phone, the car will hit just at the moment at which I most want to keep living.

I am still tired. My eyes snap open in the early morning; the light invades my sensorium. Fear grips my chest. I am unable to take a deep breath and I pant, desperate to take in my ration of oxygen. A heavy weight sits upon me. Heart attack.

My range of focus begins to fade. I am wild with fear. I pick up the phone and call the ambulance.

After hours they determine I have just had a severe panic attack and send me home with a mild sedative related to Valium. I feel foolish and I am ashamed of myself. However, to me, the paralyzing fear was absolutely real.

At this point I know I will never write again. No matter what I do my life will continue to spiral in the depths. Negative thoughts torture me. They pepper my image of myself like a barrage of bullets. I have a fully armed assault team attacking me and the horror of it is, the enemy is me.

If you have ever experienced the effects of prolonged physical pain then you can only imagine what it is like to be under the control of a reign of terror waged on the Spirit through the thought-world.

A reign of terror. If anyone did to me what my own mind does to me, if anyone said to me the words of sadistic cruelty that my own mind spits at my Being, I would seek to leave their company forever.

Why commit suicide? Indeed, why not? Everyday I must come up with a reason to continue with my life. At times I have to take medication which modifies the terror, drops it down to a low hum where I can only detect it as a vague feeling of something out of synch.

You, out there, enough of you have read my writing to know some of the denizens which inhabit my mind. They are all real. They track out of my dreams, my nightmares, dragging their stinking selves into the daylight of my reality. I have to deal with them.

I place them on paper so your eyes can eat them, your minds can devour them, and while you read them, I get some relief. Believe me when I tell you that some of these creatures are me.

I am the Troll, I am the Frankenstein, especially I am, in an alternate world, Moshe Dean, who is trapped in the world of active addiction. For you, I open the window, just a little bit, to let you peep in to the window of my disease. I don’t know about Stephen King but the world I write about lives inside me.

The doctors call it major depression, severe panic disorder, addiction. I call it reality. I am just a shot away from hell.

This chapter was written some time ago. I thought I’d put it down for you all to read because I am actually celebrating. What am I celebrating? A long-lost, to me, member of my family has reached out to me. I believe in miracles. Yes.

from my book: Essays On Major Mental Illness with a Co-Occurring Substance Use Disorder or What Came First: The Chicken or The White Horse–

A Tale of Inner City | The Virus

The day was gray on the interstate to Inner City and Dean sat in the passenger seat fitting a new collar onto the dropper. He stripped the edge off of a dollar bill, ran the strip of paper through his mouth to wet it thoroughly, and then painstakingly wrapped it around the narrow end of the dropper.

“Want to hand me a new point, Peddlar?”

Peddlar grunted, took his hands off the steering wheel as they hurtled down the fast lane at more then seventy, tucked it gently into stability with his knees and dug a new Yale stainless steel point out of his tattered overcoat.

Dean took the point and fit it onto the saliva-soaked collar-wrapped dropper. He pulled the rubber bulb off the top of the dropper, rummaged around in the glove compartment for a newly boosted pacifier, found one, moistened the inside of it with his finger and put it on top of the glass tube. He took some string from a spool and wrapped it around the neck of the pacifier to complete the seal.

“Look at this baby. The croakers at the hospital couldn’t make ‘em better, eh?”

”Yeah, you right about that. Now let’s get somethin’ to put in that rig. I’m sick as a dog,” sniffed the Peddlar.

The station they were listening to started popping static and Dean played with the dial. He wiped his nose with the back of his hand. When he was dope-sick, that nose was a marathon runner. He got the news and paused, with his hand on the dial.

“. . . .and the new virus has spread through Inner City at an alarming rate. It’s source is unknown. The onset is rapid, starting with watery eyes and drippy nose, then the fever kicks in and the shakes start. Within three hours the infected individual leaps up and runs madly through the streets of the city spraying toxic bodily fluids from every orifice and screaming for relief. Only successive shots of morphine delay the final stages of the disease. The hospitals are warehousing victims and stacking them like cord wood in rooms, corridors, cafeterias and waiting rooms. The entire city is waiting for a cure and doctors are talking about seeking out street dealers of junk to alleviate the. . . .”Dean twirled the dial until he found some music. The acapella version of “A Sunday Kind of Love” hummed into the car.

“Traffic into the city is kind of light for a Saturday afternoon, huh?” said Peddlar.

“Yeah.” Dean scrunched down in his seat and wiped his nose.

“Whaddya think of that virus?” Peddlar.

Dean was yenning for a shot and took a long time to answer.

***

When they walked into the Kaliedoscope Eye Bar they saw that Sky was already there. The big man sat at the round table in the corner and looked up at them with his one good eye. Three of his followers sat at the table and moved exactly the same way he did. Peddlar and Dean sat down. Sky slipped a bundle of packets out of his shirtcuff and Dean and Peddlar leaped up and ran into the bathroom of the bar.

There were three stalls in the bathroom. Two of them were empty. On the floor of the third a yellow-skinned man lay on the floor with his head drooping into the toilet. A blood-filled rig lay on the floor next to him.

“Yow,” said Dean. “Check this out. Another hype.”

He scooped up the bloody fit and immediately ran hot water from the sink through it.

“Still good. No clog. We got here just in time.”

They each pulled hankerchief-wrapped spoons out of their pockets, laid the dirty wraps to the side, and with the precision made of daily repetition they slit the tape sealing the bags and shook them into the cooker.

There was a glass on the sink and Dean filled it with water and they each stuck the nozzles of their gimmicks into the glass and sucked up the liquid. Dean sprayed the water onto the powder in the spoon and a couple of flecks of tobacco rose to the top of the water. He found an old Q-tip in his shirt pocket and pulled a small piece of cotton off the top. He rolled it around in his finger to ball it up.

He dropped the cotton into the liquid, pulled out a pack of matches, struck three at once and held them under the spoon. The liquid began to bubble and he lay down the spoon on the edge of the sink and shook the matches out as they began to burn his finger tips.

“Hey, watch my cooker,” he yelled as Peddlar put his down on the sink.

“Don’t worry about a thing,” said Peddlar.

“Yeah, easy for you to say,” muttered Dean through gritted teeth as he bit down on the belt that he had tied around his arm.

The dropper was full of junk. He probed the old hole in his vein and pushed the needle into the familiar place. He felt it pull a little.

“Shit,” he thought, “a fucking burr on the point.” He knew he would have to sharpen it on a matchbook but hoped he could get the hit. It was a lot easier to work after the dope made him well again.

Peddlar sagged to the floor. He looked up at Dean with eyes like slits and pupils like pin-points.

“Not too bad,” he said. “But I shoulda done three, ya know. I remember when the quality was much better than this.”

Dean moved his head slightly to agree but he was totally focused on the sprig of blood that shot up the dropper’s neck as he made the hit. He squeezed the pacifier. The contents of the dropper had almost disappeared into his arm when he paused and let up the pressur. The blood and water booted back into the glass tube and then he squeezed again as the rush hit him and he sent it home.

His nose stopped running, his eyes dried up, the warm feeling hit his crotch, all the muscles in the back of his neck relaxed, and the tightness in his stomach just unwrapped like magic. He stood still, eyes half closed and his knees bent slightly. His fingers loosened on the bulb of the pacifier and the dropper began to slowly fill with blood.

Dean heard a voice coming from far away. It took him five minutes to respond.

“Clog. You are going to clog your rig.”

“Oh.” Dean pulled the needle out of his arm and pressed down on the bulb to spray the old blood into the sink. There was a brief hesitation and then the grimy porcelain sink was covered in red. He ran water through the point. He put the needle into the water again, began to draw the water up but his eyes closed, his head drooped down, and he stood like a statue.

Peddlar touched his arm and he opened his eyes.

“How long have we been in the bathroom?” Dean

“Too long. Let’s clean up and get back out there.” Peddlar.

“What about him?” Dean pointed to the guy laying on the floor of the stall.

“Wow. I forgot about him.”

Peddlar walked over to him and began to go through his pockets.

“Hey, you got to split anything you find with me,” said Dean.

Peddlar looked up at Dean and smiled. He held up a bundle of bags and a few dollars.

“We’re good.”

“Yeah,” said Dean and they walked back out into the bar.

Sky was still sitting at the table with the young men.

“None of these statements are facts,” said Sky. “We can only assume what is true.”

The young men bobbed their heads as he talked. One of them spoke.

“We believe them all,” he said.

Peddlar and Dean sat down and ordered drinks from the waitress.

“Did you hear about the virus?” asked Sky.

“Something came on the radio about it as we were driving in. I didn’t really pay attention to it because I was looking for some good tunes.”

Peddlar turned to Dean. “Yeah, just when I started to pay attention, that asshole switched the station.”

“You could have told me to go back to it.”

Sky tapped on the table to get their attention. He leaned forward and spoke softly. Their heads all leaned in over the table like the petals of a flower closing over the button in the middle.

“This might be the best thing that ever happened to the city. Soon we may be the only people left. Junk is the only cure.”

“But I thought the junk only held the virus in stasis,” said Dean.

Peddlar was watching as someone walked into the bathroom. He smiled when they came out quick and went over to the bartender. He saw the bartender lean his head toward the man and nod a few times as if he was listening intently. Someone ordered a drink and the bartender put a shot glass on the wooden counter and spilled the amber liquid into the thick glass. There was an exchange of cash and the patron poured the shot down his throat.

The bartender turned back toward the other man and his mouth moved. The man shook his head and walked over to the pay phone. He used the phone and left, shaking his head.

The bartender went into the bathroom and came out dragging the man from the stall. Someone opened the front door of the bar and they dumped the man onto the broken cement sidewalk in front of the bar.

There was yelling in the street and everyone looked up. A woman was running down the street screaming. It seemed like saliva was spraying everywhere and she had obviously had the shits and wet herself. She fell and ripped her knees as the patrons of the bar watched. Her eyes were rolling wildly in her head.

Sky turned to the others at the table. “She could use a shot to straighten her out.”

“We all could,” said the Peddlar and everyone laughed because they knew it was true.

The woman disappeared down the street. They could no longer see her but her screaming still echoed in their ears. Suddenly there was the sound of sirens. The sound seemed to come from everywhere.

The bartender shut the door and walked back behind the bar. He poured himself a drink, tossed it down, grabbed something wrapped in a handkerchief from under the bar, asked Sky to watch the register and then disappeared into the bathroom.

Dean closed his eyes and began to dream. Someone turned on the television set. None of the channels were on. There was that humming sound.

Someone said it was because the whole city was shut down and no one was showing up for work.

Peddlar got up and put some money in the jukebox. The music came on. It was a song by a group called the Jesters named “So Strange.”

Five songs later the bartender came out of the bathroom. He sat behind the bar and lit a cigarette. His head drooped down on the bar and the cigarette burned down between his fingers. He did not move for the next hour.

One of the young men asked Sky where he thought the virus came from. Sky leaned back and did not say anything for at least five minutes. Suddenly a screamer burst through the door of the bar and ran about the room falling over tables and chairs and spraying everyone with saliva.

Sky jumped up and punched him hard and his head snapped back and blood splashed in every direction. The man fell heavily to the floor and lay there, twitching and jerking.

“My god,” someone said, ”it’s the end of the world.”

Dean picked up his head, looked around through slitted eyes for a moment and then slipped back into a nod.

Suddenly an announcer came on the television set. He was talking frantically about the spread of the virus and the extreme shortage of narcotics to combat the sickness.

“Across the city people are looting pharmacies and the hospital drug rooms. No one is safe and the official estimate is that in 23 days the virus will. . . .” There was static and then the humming resumed.

Dean suddenly looked up and turned to Peddlar.

“What time is it?”

Peddlar opened his eyes and looked at his watch.

“I don’t know. My watch stopped.”

Sky smiled at Dean and said, “That’s the best thing that ever happened.”

“What’s that?” asked Dean. “The watch?”

“No,” said Sky. “The virus.”

Taken from the Diaries of the Damned — written before the Tales of Communion——Insect-O-War

The diaries of the Damned are segmented and complete copies are unavailable. It is said that, as fossil fuel became scarce, the diaries were written and/or cared for by literate bikers who traveled across the land in small groups. They were the last historians of post-modern times and the only people who cared to keep records during what are known as the Blasted Eras, the times which came before the reign of the Great Queens.

Barracuda, The Four Horseman of The Apocalypse

Never tell God you don’t like one of his creations.—Anonymous

So, they call Sarah Palin the “Barracuda”, or at least they play that song by Heart, against Heart’s will, to describe the potential VP. Do you know how big the brain of a Barracuda is? Not very big. Vicious, not smart.

As we near 911/08, California’s unemployment rate has hit 7.3%. Last July the unemployment rate in Cal was 5.4%. Bush’s policies at work. A war economy. The Four Horseman, Conquest, War, Famine, & Death are riding high.

Children are having nightmares about Global Warming. That’s the world they will inherit and they know it. The children watch TV.

They see tsunamis drown families in Indonesia. Classrooms fall and bury students in China. Levees collapse and a major United States city, New Orleans, is staggering on its last legs. First Hurricane Kristina, then Gustave. TV news shows roads filled with refugees. In the U.S.A.

Chaos theory prevails.

Ride your bicycle instead of driving your car. Bring a cup to Dunkin Donuts instead of taking a new styrofoam cup every time. Think about it. How many styrofoam cups does Dunkin Donuts use in a day. Visualize the pile if they were all stacked together. Just one day and it’s tough to conceive the size of it.

Visualize a pitbull with lipstick on. Hey, Palin said it; what do you think it would look like?

I’m going to vote for Barack Obama and hope for the best. If McCain wins we’ll all have to go out into the streets and cut our throats and watch the blood of America run into the sewers.

Barracuda.

“From the oyster to the eagle, from the swine to the tiger, all animals are to be found in men and each of them exists in some man, sometimes several a the same time. Animals are nothing but the portrayal of our virtues and vices made manifest to our eyes, the visible reflections of our souls. God displays them to us to give us food for thought.”—–Victor Hugo, Les Miserables, 1862.

Sarah Palin. BARRACUDA! ! !

Highlights, Blues, Getting Smoked

Friend and neighbor you have taken away, my one companion is darkness.—— Psalm 88

I understand that the Democratic and Republican conventions are carefully orchestrated for the maximum punch but still –

Call me a sucker, call me naive, call me hopeful — When Barack Obama spoke I cried with happiness; emotions washed over me like ocean water without pollutants — I knew he could (which is different than would) take the U.S.A. to a better place. I was filled with HOPE.

But I remember the Sixties — we weren’t idealists — we were a generation that got Smoked by the people in power because we were too dangerous. What we failed to realize is that the “Old Patriachs” were more dangerous.

They killed John F. Kennedy, they blasted Bobby Kennedy’s brains into pools of blood, they staggered the Civil Rights movement by blowing Dr. Martin Luther King into a pile of dead meat while his powerful soul drifted above us, crying for all we would lose.

The cities burned with rage, both figuratively and literally.

The evidence of how far the enemy would go became clearer when students at Kent State were shot down by our own National Guard.

The Black Panthers were set up and slaughtered, even after they started school lunch programs for the poor. Even in prison they were killed by angry ignorant white guards.

The Chicago Ten trials saw Bobby Seale, a Black man, tied, beaten and gagged in the courtrooms of the U.S.A.

Incidentally, there is a new DVD coming out called “Chicago Ten” which depicts what actually happened during the 60′s.

Barack Obama is a man of the world, a man who can rocket the U.S.A. back into a respected position of the world again and therein lies the danger.

The Reptiles, the CEO’s, the Lizard Kings who control the giant conglomerates that oppress the backs of the people of the world see Barack Obama as a dangerous man because they know that Barack is the man who can take the human species to New Beginnings.

Unfortunately, those “new beginnings” mean that the Lizard Kings will lose their power because the PEOPLE of the U.S.A. will get their power back. Barack Obama is not only a great leader, he is a man who is willing to be led by the people of the U.S.A. Therein lies his greatness.

Barack Obama has charisma and cares about making a better world for all of us. He is willing to put his life on the line to do it.

Believe me, his life is on the line. Somebody, somewhere, in some dark corner of his/her mind is planning to end the hope of humanity. God help us to protect Obama and move him to the leadership position he was created for.

My heart is filled with hope, just as it was in the Sixties. I just pray, this time, this time, we don’t get SMOKED.

The enemy is real.

Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster, and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.— Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche.

2008, New Happenings

It’s been a long time since I’ve made an entry. Life has been quite busy. My wife had major surgery on December 3rd and it was a long difficult recovery. It appears that all is well now.

My daughter reached out and got in touch with me. That was a wonderful miracle. The last time we saw each other was in 1985. She was 6 years old, almost 7. Now she’s a grown woman, 29 years old. She has worked really hard and accomplished a great deal. I’m overwhelmed with joy at her successful endeavors.

My mental illness and drug addiction made me into an absent father. The wonder of it all is that my daughter has forgiven me and is letting me be who I am now; a very different person.

I work very hard at staying abstinent and I also treat my mental illness with the professional help. It is a wonder that I’ve come so far; once a derelict, in and out of hospitals and prisons; now I’m what one might call a “normal” citizen.

I’d tell you more but my wife just came home and I’m going to join her.

I hope you who are reading this have a happy new year and I wish you good health. Love is the most important element of life.

Peace to all of you, even those of you who don’t like what I’ve written before. I am who I am and I’m changing all the time, for the better, I hope.

The Election Blues

The republican war room strikes; Mitt Romney, the sleek, slippery, beady-eyed pit bull makes a quote similiar to the Orwell quote in my last post, but he attributes it to himself. Theft is nothing new for this man; he has spent his entire life thinking of ways to take jobs from the working man so he could make more money.

John McCain, the Gargoyle, has designated Romney to slay the opponent with his slippery tongue. McCain lurches from stage to stage, forgetting where he came from. No Straight-Talk Express anymore; McCain wants the prize; he wants to clutch it in his webbed fingers, hold it high while he rapes what is left of the U.S.A.

I have to go now. I think the republican SWAT team is closing in.

Mitt Romney has fangs.

Elephant Kills Allowed in Africa

After a 13 year suspension, officials in South Africa approved an annual culling, that’s killing, of elephants in their some of their national parks. In the Virunga, a forested region by the eastern Congo’s borders with Rwanda and Uganda, only 350 elephants remain, but they say that’s too many.

In the meantime, in Virunga National Park, 14 elephants have been poached even before the annual “culling” went into effect, and that’s just since mid-April.

If there were only 350 humans left in Massachusetts, for example, you would say we were an endangered species.

Elephants are extremely intelligent beings. They even have dying places and they return to those places periodically to mourn those they have lost from their family.

When they do a “culling”, they usually shoot down the head elephant, the Matriarch, because the other elephants will run to protect her and then it will be an easy slaughter with the elephants all close together.

Species after species are disappearing at an alarming rate because of humanity’s ways. What the hell is wrong with us? In recorded history there have been five major species die-offs, one of them due to a giant meteor hitting the Earth and dramatically changing climates all over the world.

Some scientists say we are in the sixth major die-off. This time it is because of humanity, or the lack of it within us.